No excuses.

My apologies, if there is anyone left reading this, for being away for so long. I have visited the site many times with the intention to post, and have even started many entries, but found myself unable to complete anything that I felt like sharing. I think as more time passed, the more pressure I put on myself to post something 'worthwhile', and simultaneously became less able to find anything to share.

I've been thinking a lot lately. I'm just finding it harder and harder to share those thoughts. Though work provides an endless array of issues to explore, the lack of answers is depressing, and the questions often difficult to explain, out of context. And as for my own thoughts and reactions, I'm finding it increasingly hard to communicate them, and even finding my desire to do so decreasing as well.

I've learned a lot about myself since being here, not to say that I've necessarily changed, just become self aware in different ways. And I don't always like the things I discover about myself. I often feel that as I get to know myself better, I find myself to be farther and farther away from the person I want to be. I used to feel very motivated to shape myself into that person, but that too fades.

At any rate, on this rainy Sunday evening, I finally decided that it doesn't have to be something momentous to start posting again, that its worth the effort to just post a few thoughts, now and again.

Also, I have some photos from Rangoon, I will try to put them up this week. It was a good trip. Despite the very mixed feeling about visiting this country under sanctions, I feel very strongly that it was the right thing for me to do. Happy to discuss more about that later.

Also want to mention that Rach came out to visit. I feel I didn't make for a very entertaining or informed hostess, but it was so great to see her, and have her here, and a wake up call for how out of it I've been. Got sick at the end of her visit. But finally, after two weeks, and seeing two doctors without a real diagnosis, I'm better.

I'll post again soon. Honestly.